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grin　that　I　knew　and　loved—it　was　a　new　grin；　one　that　was　a　bitter　mockery

of　his　old　sincerity；　on　the

new　face　that　belonged　to　Sam。

That　was　a　bit　much　for　me。

I'd　cried　myself　to　sleep　over　this　boy。　His　harsh　rejection　had　punched　a

painful　new　hole　in　what　was

left　of　my　chest。　He'd　left　a　new　nightmare　behind　him；　like　an　infection　in　a

sore—the　insult　after　the

injury。　And　now　he　was　here　in　my　room；　smirking　at　me　as　if　none　of　that　had

passed。　Worse　than　that；

even　though　his　arrival　had　been　noisy　and　awkward；　it　reminded　me　of　when

Edward　used　to　sneak　in

through　my　window　at　night；　and　the　reminder　picked　viciously　at　the　unhealed

wounds。

All　of　this；　coupled　with　the　fact　that　I　was　dog…tired；　did　not　put　me　in　a

friendly　mood。

〃Get　out！〃　I　hissed；　putting　as　much　venom　into　the　whisper　as　I　could。

He　blinked；　his　face　going　blank　with　surprise。

〃No；〃　he　protested。　〃I　came　to　apologize。〃

〃I　don't　accept！〃

I　tried　to　shove　him　back　out　the　window—after　all；　if　this　was　a　dream；　it

wouldn't　really　hurt　him。　It　was

useless；　though。　I　didn't　budge　him　an　inch。　I　dropped　my　hands　quickly；　and

stepped　away　from　him。

He　wasn't　wearing　a　shirt；　though　the　air　blowing　in　the　window　was　cold

enough　to　make　me　shiver；　and

it　made　me　unfortable　to　have　my　hands　on　his　bare　chest。　His　skin　was

burning　hot；　like　his　head

had　been　the　last　time　I'd　touched　him。　Like　he　was　still　sick　with　the　fever。

He　didn't　look　sick。　He　looked　huge。　He　leaned　over　me；　so　big　that　he　blacked

out　the　window；

tongue…tied　by　my　furious　reaction。

Suddenly；　it　was　j