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resource。　The　other　things　should　be　tried　first。　There　was　the

mysterious　man's　world　to　be　adventured　upon；　the　world　of　daily

work　and　duty；　and　existence　as　a　working　member　of　the

munity。　Against　this　she　had　a　subtle　grudge。　She　wanted　to

make　her　conquest　also　of　this　man's　world。

So　she　ground　away　at　her　work；　never　giving　it　up。　Some

things　she　liked。　Her　subjects　were　English；　Latin；　French；

mathematics　and　history。　Once　she　knew　how　to　read　French　and

Latin；　the　syntax　bored　her。　Most　tedious　was　the　close　study　of

English　literature。　Why　should　one　remember　the　things　one　read？

Something　in　mathematics；　their　cold　absoluteness；　fascinated

her；　but　the　actual　practice　was　tedious。　Some　people　in　history

puzzled　her　and　made　her　ponder；　but　the　political　parts　angered

her；　and　she　hated　ministers。　Only　in　odd　streaks　did　she　get　a

poignant　sense　of　acquisition　and　enrichment　and　enlarging　from

her　studies；　one　afternoon；　reading　As　You　Like　It；　once　when；

with　her　blood；　she　heard　a　passage　of　Latin；　and　she　knew　how

the　blood　beat　in　a　Roman's　body；　so　that　ever　after　she　felt

she　knew　the　Romans　by　contact。　She　enjoyed　the　vagaries　of

English　Grammar；　because　it　gave　her　pleasure　to　detect　the　live

movements　of　words　and　sentences；　and　mathematics；　the　very

sight　of　the　letters　in　Algebra；　had　a　real　lure　for　her。

She　felt　so　much　and　so　confusedly　at　this　time；　that　her

face　got　a　queer；　wondering；　half…scared　look；　as　if　she　were

not　sure　what　might　seize　upon　her　at　any　moment　out　of　the

unknown。

Odd　little　bits　of　information　stirred　unfathomable　passion

in　her。　Whe