第9部分(第5/7 頁)

　Jasper—that　was　nothing；　Edward！　Nothing！〃

〃You're　right；〃　he　agreed。　〃It　was　exactly　what　was　to　be　expected。〃

〃You　promised！　In　Phoenix；　you　promised　that　you　would　stay—〃

〃As　long　as　that　was　best　for　you；〃　he　interrupted　to　correct　me。

〃No！　This　is　about　my　soul；　isn't　it？〃　I　shouted；　furious；　the　words　exploding

out　of　me—somehow　it　still

sounded　like　a　plea。　〃Carlisle　told　me　about　that；　and　I　don't　care；　Edward。　I

don't　care！　You　can　have

my　soul。　I　don't　want　it　without　you—it's　yours　already！〃

He　took　a　deep　breath　and　stared；　unseeingly；　at　the　ground　for　a　long　moment。

His　mouth　twisted　the

tiniest　bit。　When　he　finally　looked　up；　his　eyes　were　different；　harder—like

the　liquid　gold　had　frozen

solid。

〃Bella；　I　don't　want　you　to　e　with　me。〃　He　spoke　the　words　slowly　and

precisely；　his　cold　eyes　on

my　face；　watching　as　I　absorbed　what　he　was　really　saying。

There　was　a　pause　as　I　repeated　the　words　in　my　head　a　few　times；　sifting

through　them　for　their　real

intent。

〃You　don't　want　me？〃　I　tried　out　the　words；　confused　by　the　way　they

sounded；　placed　in　that

order。

〃No。〃

I　stared；　unprehending；　into　his　eyes。　He　stared　back　without　apology。　His

eyes　were　like

topaz—hard　and　clear　and　very　deep。　I　felt　like　I　could　see　into　them　for

miles　and　miles；　yet　nowhere　in

rheir　bottomless　depths　could　I　see　a　contradiction　to　the　word　he'd　spoken。

〃Well；　that　changes　things。〃　I　was　surprised　by　how　calm　and　reasonable　my

voice　sounded。　It　must　be

because　I　was　so　numb。　I　couldn't　realize　what　he　was　telling　me。　It　still

didn't　make　any　sense。

He