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lk　it　all　through。　So　why　was　the　panic　choking　me？

We'd　gone　only　a　few　steps　into　the　trees　when　he　stopped。　We　were　barely　on

the　trail—I　could　still

see　the　house。

Some　walk。

Edward　leaned　against　a　tree　and　stared　at　me；　his　expression　unreadable。

〃Okay；　let's　talk；〃　I　said。　It　sounded　braver　than　it　felt。

He　took　a　deep　breath。

〃Bella；　we're　leaving。〃

I　took　a　deep　breath；　too。　This　was　an　acceptable　option。　I　thought　I　was

prepared。　But　I　still　had　to　ask。

〃Why　now？　Another　year—〃

〃Bella；　it's　time。　How　much　longer　could　we　stay　in　Forks；　after　all？　Carlisle

can　barely　pass　for　thirty；

and　he's　claiming　thirty…three　now。　We'd　have　to　start　over　soon　regardless。〃

His　answer　confused　me。　I　thought　the　point　of　leaving　was　to　let　his　family

live　in　peace。　Why　did　we

have　to　leave　if　they　were　going？　I　stared　at　him；　trying　to　understand　what

he　meant。

He　stared　back　coldly。

With　a　roll　of　nausea；　I　realized　I'd　misunderstood。

〃When　you　say　we—；〃　I　whispered。

〃I　mean　my　family　and　myself。〃　Each　word　separate　and　distinct。

I　shook　my　head　back　and　forth　mechanically；　trying　to　clear　it。　He　waited

without　any　sign　of

impatience。　It　took　a　few　minutes　before　I　could　speak。

〃Okay；〃　I　said。　〃I'll　e　with　you。〃

〃You　can't；　Bella。　Where　we're　going　It's　not　the　right　place　for　you。〃

〃Where　you　are　is　the　right　place　for　me。〃

〃I'm　no　good　for　you；　Bella。〃

〃Don't　be　ridiculous。〃　I　wanted　to　sound　angry；　but　it　just　sounded　like　I　was

begging。　〃You're　the　very

best　part　of　my　life。〃

〃My　world　is　not　for　you；〃　he　said　grimly。

〃What　happened　with