第31部分(第4/7 頁)

everence　thee；〃　said　Hester。　〃And　surely　thou　workestgood　among　them！　Doth　this　bring　thee　no　fort？〃 〃More　misery；　Hester！…　only　the　more　misery！〃　answered　theclergyman；　with　a　bitter　smile。　〃As　concerns　the　good　which　I　mayappear　to　do；　I　have　no　faith　in　it。　It　must　needs　be　a　delusion。　Whatcan　a　ruined　soul；　like　mine；　effect　towards　the　redemption　of　othersouls？…　or　a　polluted　soul；　towards　their　purification？　And　as　for　thepeople's　reverence；　would　that　it　were　turned　to　scorn　and　hatred！Canst　thou　deem　it；　Hester；　a　consolation；　that　I　must　stand　up　inmy　pulpit；　and　meet　so　many　eyes　turned　upward　to　my　face；　as　if　thelight　of　heaven　were　beaming　from　it！…　must　see　my　flock　hungry　forthe　truth；　and　listening　to　my　words　as　if　a　tongue　of　Pentecostwere　speaking！…　and　then　look　inward；　and　discern　the　black　reality　ofwhat　they　idolise？　I　have　laughed；　in　bitterness　and　agony　of　heart；at　the　contrast　between　what　I　seem　and　what　I　am！　And　Satan　laughs　atit！〃 〃You　wrong　yourself　in　this；〃　said　Hester　gently。　〃You　have　deeplyand　sorely　repented。　Your　sin　is　left　behind　you；　in　the　days　longpast。　Your　present　life　is　not　less　holy；　in　very　truth；　than　it　seemsin　people's　eyes。　Is　there　no　reality　in　the　penitence　thus　sealed　andwitnessed　by　good　works？　And　wherefore　should　it　not　bring　you　peace？〃 〃No；　Hester；　no！〃　replied　the　clergyman。　〃There　is　no　substance　init！　It　is　cold　and　dead；　and　can　do　nothing　for　me！　Of　penance；　I　havehad　enough！　Of　penitence；　there　has　been　none！　Else；　I　should　long　agohave　thrown　off　these　garments　of　mock　holiness；　and　have　shown　myselfto　mankind　as　they　will　see　me　at　the　judgment…seat。　Happy　are　you；Hester；　that　wear　the　scarlet　letter　openly　upon　your　bosom！　Mineburns　in　secret！　Thou　little　knowest　what　a　relief　it　is；　after　thetor