第41部分(第4/7 頁)

；〃　Catherine　said。　〃They've　got　to　give　me　something。　Oh　please；　doctor；　give　me　enough　to　do　some　good！〃

One　of　the　doctors　put　a　mask　over　her　face　and　I　looked　through　the　door　and　saw　the　bright　small　amphitheatre　of　the　operating　room。

〃You　can　go　in　the　other　door　and　sit　up　there；〃　a　nurse　said　to　me。　There　were　benches　behind　a　rail　that　looked　down　on　the　white　table　and　the　lights。　I　looked　at　Catherine。　The　mask　was　over　her　face　and　she　was　quiet　now。　They　wheeled　the　stretcher　forward。　I　turned　away　and　walked　down　the　hall。　Two　nurses　were　hurrying　toward　the　entrance　to　the　gallery。

〃It's　a　Caesarean；〃　one　said。　〃They're　going　to　do　a　Caesarean。〃

The　other　one　laughed；　〃We're　just　in　time。　Aren't　we　lucky？〃　They　went　in　the　door　that　led　to　the　gallery。

Another　nurse　came　along。　She　was　hurrying　too。

〃You　go　right　in　there。　Go　right　in；〃　she　said。

〃I'm　staying　outside。〃

She　hurried　in。　I　walked　up　and　down　the　hall。　I　was　afraid　to　go　in。　I　looked　out　the　window。　It　was　dark　but　in　the　light　from　the　window　I　could　see　it　was　raining。　I　went　into　a　room　at　the　far　end　of　the　hall　and　looked　at　the　labels　on　bottles　in　a　glass　case。　Then　I　came　out　and　stood　in　the　empty　hall　and　watched　the　door　of　the　operating　room。

A　doctor　came　out　followed　by　a　nurse。　He　held　something　in　his　two　hands　that　looked　like　a　freshly　skinned　rabbit　and　hurried　across　the　corridor　with　it　and　in　through　another　door。　I　went　down　to　the　door　he　had　gone　into　and　found　them　in　the　room　doing　things　to　a　new…born　child。　The　doctor　held　him　up　for　me　to　see。　He　held　him　by　the　heels　and　slapped　him。

〃Is　he　all　right？〃

〃He's　magnificent。　He'll　weigh　five　kilos。〃

I　had　no　feeling　for　him。　He　did