第19部分(第2/7 頁)

　if　she　knew　some　sort　of　secret　language　only　they　could　understand。　Blair　laughed　bitterly。　Why　did　Serena　have　to　pop　up　in　all　her　memories？

Maybe　because　she　was　there？

“We　were　all　friends；　and　then　in　tenth　grade；　Nate　and　I　started　dating。　And　then　that　summer；　when　I　was　in　Scotland　for　a　wedding；　Nate　and　Serena　slept　together；　and　I　didn’t　find　out　until　senior　year。”　A　fresh　sob　escaped　Blair’s　throat。　She　suddenly　recalled　how　she’d　first　found　out。　It　was　when　she　and　Nate　were　just　about　to　sleep　together　for　the　first　time。

“Do　you　still　have　feelings　for　him？”　Pete　asked。　Blair　cleared　her　throat　a　little　haughtily。　What　was　with　the　third　degree？　His　ex…girlfriend；　an　anthropology　bitch　named　Lindsey；　glared　at　Blair　whenever　they　crossed　paths　on　campus　and　Blair　never　plained。

Blair　stood　up　and　wavered　over　to　the　minibar。　She　was　determined　not　to　let　the　image　of　Serena　and　Nate　fuck　up　her　night。　And　what　better　way　than　to　have　another　drink？

“Are　you　still　in　love　with　him？”　Pete　pressed；　trailing　behind　her。

Blair　whirled　around；　a　mini　bottle　of　vodka　in　her　hand。　Why　couldn’t　he　just　let　it　go？　“No；”　she　said　flatly。　She　wasn’t　in　love　with　Nate。　She’d　moved　on。　She　had　Pete　now。　Duh。

“Okay；”　Pete　said　slowly。　His　blue　eyes　still　looked　slightly　wary；　but　he　wearily　ran　a　hand　through　his　thick　blond　hair。

“I’m　in　love　with　you；”　Blair　clarified。　It　was　true。　But　she　was　surrounded　by　all　these　feelings　from　her　high　school　past　and　it　was　hard　to　let　them　go　just　like　that。

“I　just　need　you　to　be　honest　with　me…。”　Pete　pushed　away　the　tumbler　of　vodka　impatiently。　“Just　tell　me　that　nothing　has　happened　between　you　since　high　school。”

Blair　looked　at　her　reflection　in　the