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asking; and then pulled me
next to his side to keep his
arm tight around me。 I leaned my head against his chest。
〃How will you get home?〃 I asked。
〃I'm not going home。 We still haven't caught the bloodsucker; remember?〃
My next shudder had nothing to do with cold。
It was a quiet ride after that。 The cold air had woken me up。 My mind was
alert; and it was working very
hard and very fast。
What if? What was the right thing to do?
I couldn't imagine my life without Jacob now—I cringed away from the idea of
even trying to imagine
that。 Somehow; he'd bee essential to my survival。 But to leave things the
way they were was that
cruel; as Mike had accused?
I remembered wishing that Jacob were my brother。 I realized now that all I
really wanted was a claim on
him。 It didn't feel brotherly when he held me like this。 It just felt nice—
warm and forting and familiar。
Safe。 Jacob was a safe harbor。
I could stake a claim。 I had that much within my power。
I'd have to tell him everything; I knew that。 It was the only way to be fair。
I'd have to explain it right; so
that he'd know I wasn't settling; that he was much too good for me。 He already
knew I was broken; that
part wouldn't surprise him; but he'd need to know the extent of it。 I'd even
have to admit that I was
crazy—explain about the voices I heard。 He'd need to know everything before
he made a decision。
But; even as I recognized that necessity; I knew he would take me in spite of
it all。 He wouldn't even
pause to think it through。
I would have to mit to this—mit as much of me as there was left; every
on
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