第59部分(第2/7 頁)

en。　That　this　moment　would　last　forever；　or；　if　it

couldn't；　that　I　would　stop

existing　when　it　did。

Edward　stared　right　back　at　me；　his　dark　eyes　soft；　and　it　was　easy　to　pretend

that　he　felt　the　same　way。

So　that's　what　I　did。　I　pretended；　to　make　the　moment　sweeter。

His　fingertips　traced　the　circles　under　my　eyes。　〃You　look　so　tired。〃

〃And　you　look　thirsty；〃　I　whispered　back；　studying　the　purple　bruises　under

his　black　irises。

He　shrugged。　〃It's　nothing。〃

〃Are　you　sure？　I　could　sit　with　Alice；〃　I　offered；　unwilling；　I'd　rather　he

killed　me　now　than　move　one　inch

from　where　I　was。

〃Don't　be　ridiculous。〃　He　sighed；　his　sweet　breath　caressed　my　face。　〃I've

never　been　in　better　control　of

that　side　of　my　nature　than　right　now。〃

I　had　a　million　questions　for　him。　One　of　them　bubbled　to　my　lips　now；　but　I

held　my　tongue。　I　didn't

want　to　ruin　the　moment；　as　imperfect　as　it　was；　here　in　this　room　that　made

me　sick；　under　the　eyes　of

the　would…be　monster。

Here　in　his　arms；　it　was　so　easy　to　fantasize　that　he　wanted　me。　I　didn't　want

to　think　about　his

motivations　now—about　whether　he　acted　this　way　to　keep　me　calm　while　we　were

still　in　danger；　or　if

he　just　felt　guilty　for　where　we　were　and　relieved　that　he　wasn't　responsible

for　my　death。　Maybe　the　time

apart　had　been　enough　that　I　didn't　bore　him　for　the　moment。　But　it　didn't

matter。　I　was　so　much　happier

pretending。

I　lay　quiet　in　his　arms；　re…memorizing　his　face；　pretending

He　stared　at　my　face　like　he　was　doing　the　same；　while　he　and　Alice　discussed

how　to　get　home。　Their

voices　were　so　quick