第66部分(第7/7 頁)

For　a　time　she　must　just　lapse。

But　very　shortly　she　found　herself　up　against　her　mother。　Her

mother　had；　at　this　time；　the　power　to　irritate　and　madden　the

girl　continuously。　There　were　already　seven　children；　yet　Mrs。

Brangwen　was　again　with　child；　the　ninth　she　had　borne。　One　had

died　of　diphtheria　in　infancy。

Even　this　fact　of　her　mother's　pregnancy　enraged　the　eldest

girl。　Mrs。　Brangwen　was　so　placent；　so　utterly　fulfilled　in

her　breeding。　She　would　not　have　the　existence　at　all　of

anything　but　the　immediate；　physical；　mon　things。　Ursula

inflamed　in　soul；　was　suffering　all　the　anguish　of　youth's

reaching　for　some　unknown　ordeal；　that　it　can't　grasp；　can't

even　distinguish　or　conceive。　Maddened；　she　was　fighting　all　the

darkness　she　was　up　against。　And　part　of　this　darkness　was　her

mother。　To　limit；　as　her　mother　did；　everything　to　the　ring　of

physical　considerations；　and　placently　to　reject　the　reality

of　anything　else；　was　horrible。　Not　a　thing　did　Mrs。　Brangwen

care　about；　but　the　children；　the　house；　and　a　little　local

gossip。　And　she　would　not　be　touched；　she　would　let

nothing　else　live　near　her。　She　went　about；　big　with　child；

slovenly；　easy；　having　a　certain　lax　dignity；　taking　her　own

time；　pleasing　herself；　always；　always　doing　things　for　the

children；　and　feeling　that　she　thereby　fulfilled　the　whole　of

womanhood。

This　long　trance　of　placent　child…bearing　had　kept　her

young　and　undeveloped。　She　was　scarcely　a　day　older　than　when

Gudrun　was　born。　All　these　years　nothing　had　happened　save　the

ing　of　the　children；