第54部分(第4/7 頁)

；　and　she　was　the　lamb。　Again；

in　the　morning；　going　down　the　lane；　she　heard　the　ewe　call；　and

the　lambs　came　running；　shaking　and　twinkling　with　new…born

bliss。　And　she　saw　them　stooping；　nuzzling；　groping　to　the

udder；　to　find　the　teats；　whilst　the　mother　turned　her　head

gravely　and　sniffed　her　own。　And　they　were　sucking；　vibrating

with　bliss　on　their　little；　long　legs；　their　throats　stretched

up；　their　new　bodies　quivering　to　the　stream　of　blood…warm；

loving　milk。

Oh；　and　the　bliss；　the　bliss！　She　could　scarcely　tear　herself

away　to　go　to　school。　The　little　noses　nuzzling　at　the　udder；

the　little　bodies　so　glad　and　sure；　the　little　black　legs；

crooked；　the　mother　standing　still；　yielding　herself　to　their

quivering　attraction……then　the　mother　walked　calmly

away。

Jesus……the　vision　world……the　everyday

world……all　mixed　inextricably　in　a　confusion　of　pain　and

bliss。　It　was　almost　agony；　the　confusion；　the　inextricability。

Jesus；　the　vision；　speaking　to　her；　who　was　non…visionary！　And

she　would　take　his　words　of　the　spirit　and　make　them　to　pander

to　her　own　carnality。

This　was　a　shame　to　her。　The　confusing　of　the　spirit　world

with　the　material　world；　in　her　own　soul；　degraded　her。　She

answered　the　call　of　the　spirit　in　terms　of　immediate；　everyday

desire。

〃e　unto　me；　all　ye　that　labour　and　are　heavy…laden；　and　I

will　give　you　rest。〃

It　was　the　temporal　answer　she　gave。　She　leapt　with　sensuous

yearning　to　respond　to　Christ。　If　she　could　go　to　him　really；

and　lay　her　head　on　his　breast；　to　have　fort；　to　be　made　much

of；　caressed　like　a　child！

All　the　time　she　w