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y　get　organized　their　leaders　sell　them　out。〃

〃Then　it's　hopeless？〃

〃It　is　never　hopeless。　But　sometimes　I　cannot　hope。　I　try　always　to　hope　but　sometimes　I　cannot。〃

〃Maybe　the　war　will　be　over。〃

〃I　hope　so。〃

〃What　will　you　do　then？〃

〃If　it　is　possible　I　will　return　to　the　Abruzzi。〃

His　brown　face　was　suddenly　very　happy。

〃You　love　the　Abruzzi？〃

〃Yes；　I　love　it　very　much。〃

〃You　ought　to　go　there　then。〃

〃I　would　be　too　happy。　If　I　could　live　there　and　love　God　and　serve　Him。〃

〃And　be　respected；〃　I　said。

〃Yes　and　be　respected。　Why　not？〃

〃No　reason　not。　You　should　be　respected。〃

〃It　does　not　matter。　But　there　in　my　country　it　is　understood　that　a　man　may　love　God。　It　is　not　a　dirty　joke。〃

〃I　understand。〃

He　looked　at　me　and　smiled。

〃You　understand　but　you　do　not　love　God。〃

〃No。〃

〃You　do　not　love　Him　at　all？〃　he　asked。

〃I　am　afraid　of　Him　in　the　night　sometimes。〃

〃You　should　love　Him。〃

〃I　don't　love　much。〃

〃Yes；〃　he　said。　〃You　do。　What　you　tell　me　about　in　the　nights。　That　is　not　love。　That　is　only　passion　and　lust。　When　you　love　you　wish　to　do　things　for。　You　wish　to　sacrifice　for。　You　wish　to　serve。〃

〃I　don't　love。〃

〃You　will。　I　know　you　will。　Then　you　will　be　happy。〃

〃I'm　happy。　I've　always　been　happy。〃

〃It　is　another　thing。　You　cannot　know　about　it　unless　you　have　it。〃

〃Well；〃　I　said。　〃If　I　ever　get　it　I　will　tell　you。〃

〃I　stay　too　long　and　talk　too　much。〃　He　was　worried　that　he　really　did。

〃No。　Don't　go。　How　about　loving　women？　If　I　really　loved　some　woman　would　it　be　like　that？〃

〃I　don't　know　about　that。　I　never　loved　any　woman。〃

〃What　about