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　what　you　want　and　then　I'll　be　a　great　success；　won't　I？〃

〃Yes。〃

〃What　would　you　like　me　to　do　now　that　you're　all　ready？〃

〃e　to　the　bed　again。〃

〃All　right。　I'll　e。〃

〃Oh；　darling；　darling；　darling；〃　I　said。

〃You　see；〃　she　said。　〃I　do　anything　you　want。〃

〃You're　so　lovely。〃

〃I'm　afraid　I'm　not　very　good　at　it　yet。〃

〃You're　lovely。〃

〃I　want　what　you　want。　There　isn't　any　me　any　more。　Just　what　you　want。〃

〃You　sweet。〃

〃I'm　good。　Aren't　I　good？　You　don't　want　any　other　girls；　do　you？〃

〃No。〃

〃You　see？　I'm　good。　I　do　what　you　want。〃

17

When　I　was　awake　after　the　operation　I　had　not　been　away。　You　do　not　go　away。　They　only　choke　you。　It　is　not　like　dying　it　is　just　a　chemical　choking　so　you　do　not　feel；　and　afterward　you　might　as　well　have　been　drunk　except　that　when　you　throw　up　nothing　es　but　bile　and　you　do　not　feel　better　afterward。　I　saw　sandbags　at　the　end　of　the　bed。　They　were　on　pipes　that　came　out　of　the　cast。　After　a　while　I　saw　Miss　Gage　and　she　said；　〃How　is　it　now？〃

〃Better；〃　I　said。

〃He　did　a　wonderful　job　on　your　knee。〃

〃How　long　did　it　take？〃

〃Two　hours　and　a　half。〃

〃Did　I　say　anything　silly？〃

〃Not　a　thing。　Don't　talk。　Just　be　quiet。〃

I　was　sick　and　Catherine　was　right。　It　did　not　make　any　difference　who　was　on　night　duty。

There　were　three　other　patients　in　the　hospital　now；　a　thin　boy　in　the　Red　Cross　from　Georgia　with　malaria；　a　nice　boy；　also　thin；　from　New　York；　with　malaria　and　jaundice；　and　a　fine　boy　who　had　tried　to　unscrew　the　fuse…cap　from　a　bination　shrapnel　and　high　explosive　shell　for　a　souvenir。　This　was　a　shrapnel　shell　used　by　the　Austrians　in　the　mountains　with　a　nose…cap　which