第15部分(第1/7 頁)

e　would　be　lying　together　and　I　would　touch　her　cheeks　and　her　forehead　and　under　her　eyes　and　her　chin　and　throat　with　the　tips　of　my　fingers　and　say；　〃Smooth　as　piano　keys；〃　and　she　would　stroke　my　chin　with　her　finger　and　say；　〃Smooth　as　emery　paper　and　very　hard　on　piano　keys。〃

〃Is　it　rough？〃

〃No；　darling。　I　was　just　making　fun　of　you。〃

It　was　lovely　in　the　nights　and　if　we　could　only　touch　each　other　we　were　happy。　Besides　all　the　big　times　we　had　many　small　ways　of　making　love　and　we　tried　putting　thoughts　in　the　other　one's　head　while　we　were　in　different　rooms。　It　seemed　to　work　sometimes　but　that　was　probably　because　we　were　thinking　the　same　thing　anyway。

We　said　to　each　other　that　we　were　married　the　first　day　she　had　e　to　the　hospital　and　we　counted　months　from　our　wedding　day。　I　wanted　to　be　really　married　but　Catherine　said　that　if　we　were　they　would　send　her　away　and　if　we　merely　started　on　the　formalities　they　would　watch　her　and　would　break　us　up。　We　would　have　to　be　married　under　Italian　law　and　the　formalities　were　terrific。　I　wanted　us　to　be　married　really　because　I　worried　about　having　a　child　if　I　thought　about　it；　but　we　pretended　to　ourselves　we　were　married　and　did　not　worry　much　and　I　suppose　I　enjoyed　not　being　married；　really。　I　know　one　night　we　talked　about　it　and　Catherine　said；　〃But；　darling；　they'd　send　me　away。〃

〃Maybe　they　wouldn't。〃

〃They　would。　They'd　send　me　home　and　then　we　would　he　apart　until　after　the　war。〃

〃I'd　e　on　leave。〃

〃You　couldn't　get　to　Scotland　and　back　on　a　leave。　Besides；　I　won't　leave　you。　What　good　would　it　do　to　marry　now？　We're　really　married。　I　couldn't　be　any　more　married。〃

〃I　only　wanted　to　for　you。〃

〃There　isn't　any　me。　I'm　you。　Don't　m